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The heart's desire to burn up the mind's complacency. [Feb. 2nd, 2012|04:01 pm]
Veritas et Aequitas
This is when the chest pains set in. I hope it's not a series of small heart attacks, though it very well may be, but instead just a series of really bad bouts of acid reflux. Days like today make me wonder why I'm still here. My job, as many jobs go, it stressful. I sell insurance, but I am a hybrid agent. This means I not only sell it, but service it...as well as take on the responsible of keeping these mouth breathing, bottom feeding fucktards happy. I HATE it. These clients are the reason I get calls on Sundays...the reason I sleep like shit and drink too much the minute I get the chance...BUT they're also the reason my family is taken care of. I dance a fine line everyday. I'm close to exploding and going postal on one of these expectant, entitled smarmy little shits, but if I do...well, I'd probably be digging ditches for a living. At this point, I'm not sure what would be worse. My heart says get up and leave...my complacent mind says, "We need a job." As for now my mind is correct...I need to support my family.
The clients who are understanding and appreciative, are nice and have common social graces...i will go to the ends of the earth for. The others, however, make me want to print up their addresses, go to their houese and teach them a thing or two about how to treat people...about how to have some respect. I HATE IT HERE.