||[Oct. 14th, 2016|11:30 am]
Veritas et Aequitas
So, I never write in here anymore. I've said that same thing in many entries since my posting dwindled, so I guess it's nothing new. Today I was listening to Pandora at work. Berlin's Take My Breath Away came on. I'm not a huge fan of the song itself, but I did love Top Gun as most kids from the 80's, and I got curious and Googled when the song came out. 1986...I was 9. I stared thinking about when I was that age...how long ago it was...the fact my son will be nine in three and a half years...the nostalgia and sadness was almost enough to knock me over. |
I lost my Mom to cancer May 13th of this year, and dealing with it has been hard. Usually I'm ok, but sometimes, little things like this song, a memory from when we were kids...it just knocks me down a peg for the day. I miss her. I miss what her memory represents. My childhood, while not perfect, was kind of perfect. I know that doesn't make a lot of sense, but it's the best way I can put it into words. I had a neighborhood with 10-15 kids within a year of my age at the height of my childhood years. We rode bikes, played war and manhunt, camped, went fishing and hiking...it was just so...perfect. It's kind of fucked up how time just plays tricks on you...makes you believe the moment you're living in ill last forever.
It's also kind of funny that I'm a year away from the same age my Dad was when I started to have those childhood memories and neighborhood memories with my friends. I don't know...this entry isn't really for anything more than to capture a thought. I sure do miss those days.